it's not my fault I hate you.
it's not yours either.
I just...do.  no matter what you've done for me.
but no matter WHAT happens, you'll never be family to me.
because it was you who broke up my family, and people like you pay.

and yes, maybe I am that ungrateful bitch. ha.

wow. haven't updated in almost 3 months.
I was so busy with my finals.  It's like, ever since I got back from Cornell, everyone is working so hard.  scary much?
Anyway, I seriously can't believe this year is almost over.  This is, no doubt, the best year I've ever had and with the best class ever.  From form assembly to CLC to our classes, they were all awesome.  I love you all to bits :)

To the ones who are leaving, Lulu, Steph and Christie: You guys are awesome people and I'll miss you everyday.  I love every single moment we had together and nothing will change a second of it.  VISIT!!

I love you all so much. xo

I don't like bitches. ha ha.
irony is, just a few months ago I thought we were going to be a really good friends.
turns out it's just wishful thinking.
so just go on being you,
and I'll just go on with being me.
But one thing I learnt is that people can really be dead ungrateful,
but it's fine, it'll pass.

I really liked you before.
and now, I'm just going to give this one last try.
if it works out? great.
it it doesn't? fine.
I'll never speak to you again.
Sorry for anything I did in the past half year to cause you to be so bitchy.

couldn't you just give me one day of peace you son of a bitch?
don't you know what I mean by "f the hell off my life"?
don't you have the teeniest bit of self awareness?
don't you know me in the least?
don't you have the faintest idea that you are not wanted? by me at least.

and you bitch, what can I say?

so i haven't been updating!
anyway, the past month have been...what's the word...overwhleming.
so many things happend, and I'm really sad to say most of them are bad.
in fact, they're really discouraging, but I guess it's time for me to move on and face life head on and just try my best now.
Because that's all I can do.

from "Watch Me Shine":
And I won't stop
Till I'm on top now
Not gonna give up
Until I get what's mine

-x-

Because loving someone, sometimes, is to just give everything you have to give.
I'm sorry, but that's all that I got.